cny day 2.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
i am someone that loves to run a few windows each time i am with my pc.
this is random. i will slap your face if you forget my face. (:
i am waiting for my player to cool down cos i am glue-ing my eyes to it since ages ago. i have found many many dvds at her place (:
he asked if he should chose his 10year or that girl he is totally nuts about. i thought words were caught in my mouth. i looked at him. and looked. its very subjective i shall say. i very much wished that he would have the best at both ends. with a 10 year friend and that girl. its almost impossible. think of it, the 10year is already aware of his feelings, back out or not, i am not too sure. so whether any of them got the girl, the friendship would somehow be affected. if 10yr really got the girl, would you feel any better and continue to hang out together? or you got the girl, vice-versa? or both walked off empty handed? will the friendship be still running as strong? or worse, the narrow-minded one sour up everything by adding sugar and spice? i learnt to pursue what i really am into. i believe he is sensible enough to make a decision. without me giving any definite answer, he left me with a hug and a million dollar smile. actually he already knows what he wanted, he just wanted to be much more firm. i know.
i let out a laugh when i looked at his amused face. i am hitting my twen-teen soon. sounds old, at least to me. perhaps my surroundings' a little nuts. nearly a handful of my cussizes are attached. they turn to me and asked the same old quess. you know the same old thing. i am not angry or offended. 90% of them said, we dare not match-make. i am actually quite stunned. i am a strange creature so that explains his a-m-u-s-e-d expression.
i want someone to understand me, without me saying out loud. and when i met one, i realised i moved on too fast, without him. i run. because he knew me too well. and i begin to hate it. i find it a chore that he reads my mind.
i want someone who is able to tame me, but i find them overly-possessive over time. so much so that, i cant breathe. it irks me so when he dominates me.
i want someone as carefree as i am. be able to find time for anything we liked. able to travel without any strong commitments. enjoy the finest things in life. we are almost two worlds apart with similar interest.
i want someone passionate. almost like me. but the passion dies out fast.
certain areas of my life are traditional. yet i dont stay the same ground all the time. like i realised, i stick to what i thought my ambition was for 1yr and 3mths. that's long. very long. but i never regret. i moved and jumped and hopped as and when i like. i like the freedom and i stayed to view the beauty and fugly-ness. i learn. not many stick with my view. one said this is not growing. but goddamnit, tell me. how many 10years you have? how many 10years for you to view? do you really wanna hold on to something which you have been doing like a stupid routine half of your life? well, its not me. they shoot me down, thinking i have no burdens. but who is the one that brings in the burdens and shoulder them?
everything's so random.
sleepy from the many many discs (: but i like...
nite. no nightmares. i will slap you. ((: